Today I started the day off in a pretty bad funk. You know one of those “woe is me” days. I was tired of being home alone with the kiddo’s. I was just plain ole lonely and wanted to be living in one of my “pre-momma days.” I wanted to have my day pack and snowshoes strapped on and out hiking a mountain… with just me. I wanted no responsibilities, no nursing sessions to base my life around. I wanted my freedom. You know those moments when ya just don’t want to be a momma and you want to be YOU? Well, that was my day until we started putting our Valentine’s Day goodie bags together.
And it wasn’t until I started watching this little missy girl of mine, that I realized that I no longer wanted to be alone… I wanted to be right here with them. I wanted to watch them consume waaay too many treats and hoard them away in there “secret” bags. I wanted to be at my little baby’s beckoning call for milk. I wanted to be…me and a momma! It’s a struggle sometimes finding me in all the mix, but I know I’m there. Some days are harder than others, but thanks to my kiddo’s and these cute little m&m‘s I was able to find…mommy&me. Sometimes it is the little things that make us realize who we really are. And someday I will have my day pack and snowshoes strapped on again. And hopefully I will have 3 little ones right behind me.
So how do you keep from loosing “me” in all the mix? Are you there in the mix or does motherhood change who you are?
isn’t it ironic, how sometimes those little people that put you into that funky-funk in the first place, are the same little ones getting you out?!